Jay Sebring - His nephew's determination

 When I was young, very young, we had the book Helter Skelter on the Charles Manson murders. The book came out in 1976 so I was around 8 or 9 years old. My mother would comment from time to time on how she met one of the victims back when she was living in California, "Jay-the hairstylist." She went on to say she met him through a mutual friend. 

I don't know if you've ever read the book but there are photos. So, as she would say those things, my little girl's ears were taking it all in while absorbing the photos. At this point I had already been molested by a couple of people, both times, different locations and neighbors. Secrets only I and they knew at the time. So, my world already had known darkness and to learn about this connection now to a well known case, well, it was overwhelming for my little system. 

As for Mom, I don't believe she intended to traumatize me, if anything I think she was still processing it all. 

Lately, and since I have discovered some rather odd things from my two years of childhood in southern California, that eerie feeling has returned. You see a short while after she first told me about the book, we moved to Des Plaines from Evanston where we had lived since moving from Burbank when I was 2. A handful of years later I would have a good friend who had been a neighbor of John Wayne Gacy. He knew him from that neighborhood - I wasn't even 16 years old and already had very close connections two stories of serial killers. My world felt very dark, as this was when I was also sick and in and out of hospitals. There really didn't seem to be a lot hope and light around me. 

Maybe it is because I am focusing on healing, or perhaps all the information and shows making their way to us because of current events, especially on Jeffrey Epstein but it has triggered those old emotions and now, I have even more questions. 

Questions on what exactly happened in California back in the 60s. Since I've been flaring all weekend I've been watching documentaries on that time period and all the different situations exploding, especially in California. 

I happened to land on this movie, and I was hooked. It was made by the nephew of Jay Sebring - he's searching to fill in holes and gaps - he speaks about Jay being highly intelligent, a free spirit and a bit of a rebel, especially during his time in the Navy - incidents that could have led to court martial. I found that intriguing - for a few reasons I will explain one day. 

It was a very good documentary that placed focus on the victim and not only on those who did it. I must admit I do have a lot more questions and they all formed in the first 15 minutes. I also understand why his nephew spent all those years digging and putting it together - It is well done and worth the time to watch. 

I will touch on those questions in a blog post later this week, but for now, I will leave you with the video-it's an age restricted video so you have to click the link and watch it on youtube. Cutting to the Truth....Jay Sebring: