Fear's Rabbit Hole

 

Today's rabbit hole took me down paths I really wasn't expecting. Along the way what I discovered , some were false flags and others, red ones. 

I followed Frank Lloyd Wright's life in documentaries and articles. There was a lot of twists and turns, I walked away seeing him as a haunted man after perfection - the perfect building, the perfect lover, the perfect mind and to get there required madness under control- behind the man was the boy abandoned as a child. 

I also discovered one of his rather successful apprentices came from my mother's hometown area, and also happened to be the son of the founder of Dow Chemical - that apprentice was Alden Dow which, of course led to another uncomfrtable rabbit hole realizing the history of Dow Chemical and connections too close to home. 

It's been one hell of a rabbit hole - convergence, so to speak. Many paths at once. 

Today's current events on a national level, the twists and turns -the false and red flags, are all echoes of tactics of the past. You can see it walking backwards - the same political games, propaganda inserted among truth to give just enough haze, and it left me with an ache, an ache of a little girl realizing no matter how I try to make sense out of all these characters, their connections, and how the dominoes fell I cannot change what happened to her, and all the others. 

Perhaps that is what I've been searching for - a way to explain, and then erase but that's an impossible feat - much like trying to get back those 50 years of healthcare struggles and how all impacted my life and others. I know too many people who have had similar but different paths, with the same results of lost time and that ache. 

I felt like an orphan today among history trying to find its way. 

Seeing all of it of course makes a person reflect on their own flaws, something I do more than people will ever know. It can be overwhelming when all those connections hit. 

Duality? It's everywhere down that rabbit hole and these stories but the one thread they all contain in the destruction left in the wake, were actions out of fear - enough fear to eliminate empathy and consideration. 

Fear is the ultimate motivator - it can make you run into a burning building, burn one down, or even build one. Considering all these paths I am looking into started during one of the most violent and twisted times in our history, well, you decide...did they rescue or start another flame? 

Religions fearing what happens if they don't recruit - Agencies trying to prevent infiltration while they infiltrate, and people turning into expendables for a greater good we cannot agree upon. All of which is ultimately won with power and control - supported by wealth and for why? For what? To remain relevant in a circus? 

This post will probably not make sense to a reader who happens along, but if you've been paying attention and following along, you will understand. 

How do we fix this? 

We have to stop.

Change course.

All - 

It's scary, isn't it? 

Not knowing what's ahead when you can't see behind because of the haze? 

You tell me. 

Lead Image by Stefan Keller from Pixabay