Hypervigilance- Strength or Weakness? Dominoes of a CSA Survivor's Reckoning PART 2

Continued from Part 1

Well, is it? Hypervigilance- Strength or Weakness? Interesting question. I wonder what an intelligent, hyper aware, society would be like? A strength or a weakness? 

A question I can  hear being debated during and after WWII, including among those risking their lives and careers and our welfare. How could we be the best we could be? Protect our homeland and rebuild to a better future? How? How could WE be so powerful all other must fear messing with us ever again? A question debated all over the world and while everyone was still busy licking wounds and pains of the not so distant past. Never again, no matter the price? 

I guess the question revealing intent in those conversations would be based off of if it was a concern and love for country and mankind, or fear of being stomped on and losing. 

Around the next turn is a crossroad. All those captives. Those evil bastards forcing those conversations. Turning human beings into inanimate objects for experiments, power trips, and out of a supposed "greater good for their own kind." All those efficient engineering minds - precise and clear, with all their live experiments - the knowledge that could be gained. Can you hear it? Someone realizing such a twisted fact? 

Here is the thing, a true survivalist knows they are not innocent - they've faced crossed roads of survival where intent was love - hope based on their realities; opportunist do not know that reflection for themself but they do know it will freeze a good heart in place - aka oppression. Ask the Germans and the Russians, heck, look at our own history, can you hear Salem calling? Alabama? Oklahoma?  During the time of lynchings, for the greater good of one segment imposed onto another. What did they win? All this trauma swirling about. 

If we really wanted to look at the framework we structured still playing out today we'd take a hard look at what's behind the paperclip. And how that simple link caused so many with supposed good intent to fall, individuals, corporations, and organizations. We've seen some of those results played out in headlines across the decades with priests rightfully defrocked, Catholics demonized - while brainwashed and crazy cult insults hurled the other way, let us pray. Meanwhile everyone's greater good and everything to protect it ended up taking the innocence of so many while the very service and military/gov organizations who so proudly protect turned away, ah, yes, and for the greater good, in their own thoughts processes and framework. 

It all inner connected - everyone believing deep down their intent was pure.  Think positive while old wounds were still playing out in behind the scenes battles of today, as they did centuries ago - echoes of the past strengthening that hypervigilance earned from surviving. If anything we need a healing table that places all focus on tomorrow not yesterday, an almost impossible task for a survivor knowing that yesterday built them to survive that very moment. We have to reprogram the way we think. 

One strong example of why would be going back to that era, unraveling the paperclip and taking in the surroundings, remembering most at that time were operating out of their own fear and hope based off what they just went through and was about to -joys of recognizing and honoring individuality in others while honoring your own spirituality - 

If you've been wandering Youtube looking for distractions then you've probably seen there are many vloggers out there right now trying to bring awareness to Francis Shelden and John David Norman and because of Epstein. They represent all walks of life, all segments from white to people of color, red and blue, those who follow a pope to those who follow an owl and a rose or nothing at all. 

I think part of the problem right now and why much of it, along with the MKUltra and GATE reports,  all those varying walks are coming together but still not ready and prepared to see it without bias from their own foundation and prides. Those core beliefs instilled before memories were recognized,  mingled with old wounds from the past still whispering. And until they are ready to sit together as The Scared and The Scarlet did in the name of unconditional love and hope for all of eternity, these wounds shall continue to bleed. 

This is not an opinion excusing fascism, but rather how the framework paperclipping it together, maintained it to evolve and we all turned away. 

Our Children are Not For Sale. 

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Author's/Artist's Note: As a disabled survivor using assistive technology, which changes day by day pending health and that day's needs- (#zebralife), I pour these chapters from my own experiences and the people I've met along the path of life. Assistive tech helps me many ways to present my message. If you have experienced CSA or SA and are in need of support, I urge you to reach out -RAINN or Support for Men at 1in6.org are lifelines. What's next? Comments welcome, always.