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This morning I had started a vent post about Ghislaine Maxwell - it was long and those who are regular readers, I am sure you know what the tone and sentiment of what that post was...full blown pissed off advocate mode.  It takes me a long time anymore to write these, especially when my autoimmune disorders flare but, even so, after two hours working on it, I scrapped it I have to be honest with myself and need to use this blog as I started to do way back when it was my online journal. I need to do that because I'm hurting right now.  When I tell young women to be patient and take time for themselves in healing I do so from a place of knowing what happens when you don't. I used to be one of those people who would eat up every book I found on self help thinking that was all I needed to do, read it and then I shall be healed. Obviously, that didn't work. It took almost 4 decades of life and almost losing my life before I realized the road to healing starts within.  It is with

Patience.  That is the secret to healing and growth.  It is not a destination, it is a journey.  There is no magic pill -  No special prayer- No abracadabra that will bring you closer to it.. It is a path - You walk it.  You make decisions.  You have accomplishments,  You will make mistakes  But as long as you are patient with  yourself along the journey -  You will discover that self love, self respect, and embracing all of your life provides are the clues and guidance needed for wisdom.  Patience is the only path leading to it.. If you find yourself on a detour - you can always get back on track with Self kindness Reflection and honoring your existence - the life still in you and all the love you've learned you are worthy of.. Remember, patience. 

This post is dedicated to a couple of young ladies out there...you know who you are.  Keep asking questions.  They're justified. Keep seeking truths.  Believe in yourself enough, your existence, your purpose on this Earth to demand respect from the people you surround yourself with, even those you call family.  The steps you walk are your's, not their's - they made their decisions, now it is your time.  Never allow yourself to remain in an abusive environment - be it emotionally, physically and/or sexually.  Run for the hills when you sense those red flags. Don't apologize for it.  Treat people as you wish to be treated, then don't fall when they don't respect your boundaries.  You were not a mistake. You were not something to be hidden away. Your story, no matter how pain-filled, needs to be honored and embraced. I can guarantee you that no matter how surreal you feel your life is, there is someone out there who can relate. Don't let someone else's sham

What do you remember fondly when you look back at your childhood, a carefree time..even if it was just a moment, and the picture in your head reflects pure and endearing innocence? For me: I loved long flowing nightgowns - I felt like I looked like what my father often referred to me as - Daddy's Little Princess Dressing my Siamese cat, Kelly, in doll clothing and pushing him around the house in my baby doll carriage Playing waitress and taking orders every night while my parents watched tv. Holding my breath when we'd drive by a cemetery so that the spirits wouldn't enter my body by breathing them in- I got close to turning blue once when we were stuck at a train crossing, lol. Believing that one day I would be able to fly........... For any of you who have survived child sexual assault, hold on to those memories - that innocent child wasn't ripped away from you. It may have felt like that but when the trauma hit, that child-like innocence, the wonderment and carefree

July 31, 2020 Update to the following as of 1:30pm Mitchell was sentenced this afternoon in Juneau County Circuit Court (Wisconsin) According to online records, the sentences on the charges are consecutive and concurrent - Steve Mitchell's sentencing per online records: COURT: Ct.1-10yr prison - 5yrs Init Conf/5yrs Ext Supv/Sex offender registry/No contact with any minors except as approved by agent/$565.60/$500.00 surcharge. Restitution hearing scheduled for Aug                 Steve Mitchell (DOB 10-03-1965)           Juneau County (WI) Sheriff's Office Photo Back in 2017 I broke the story that Steve Mitchell, a funeral director in Wonewoc Wisconsin was charged with multiple counts of possession of child pornography. Mitchell wasn't 'just' a funeral home director, he was a large presence in the community. At the time I was working at a newspaper in rural Wisconsin. We posted the article to our social media and it took off like a wildfire.  Here is

Ghislaine Maxwell is sitting in jail and we are all awaiting the slow and torturous process of a justice system to finally do their job. Will they? Are they even able to considering that once they do,  dominoes will come crashing down all over the globe. The shockwave will be a lot for some to absorb.  Those dominoes are the people - the leaders, all the CEOs, the entertainers, and public officials who have held on tightly and corruptly to their own twisted secrets of having a sick and twisted mind which draws them to sexually assault children. Yes, there are people running every aspect of our society who get hard-ons in taking the innocence away from a child, especially vulnerable children who more than likely gave off the scent of needing to know what love is, what it felt like to be wanted. Pedophiles are like rats who sniff out easy targets to devour.  The mere thought of them is repulsive to most, thankfully - but, what about all those who surround them, covering up t

I"m back. I have spent the last four months in a Covid-19 cautionary self-isolation. The runaway virus and my decision came one day before launching #whenibecamefree 2020 On the Road. Limy fe happens and with that, so do bullshit hurdles.  We're used to that around here. The kids (young adults) in this house have been on layoff since the end of March. The five of us getting along just fine, despite all of living life within these walls on Vegas casino time. The animals are happy campers. At first they didn't know what was going on - by the end of week two they were walking around in a confused state. They soon realized what was occurring was exactly what they have always been dreaming about - non stop attention and with five people in the house, a steady stream of human food. We have long discussions about current events - and I think I've apologized to them at least two dozen times now for leaving them a world we all created. We fucking flunked. My fingers st