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False Security....

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"Well, you should just get a restraining order against him, and that will end it!" Don't let comments such as that give you a false sense of security!! Restraining orders, while they do serve a good purpose if properly issued, and utilized, they will not save you from an offender who is out of control. Please remember that and make sure you take other steps to keep yourself safe. In my case, orders of protection and "no contact" meant nothing to my abuser. If anything they served to give him something to aim his anger at and a reason to take it out on me - I had to make sure I had other things lined up for my own security...and since I didn't have a lot to work with, that meant I made sure to remember the little things....like... STAY OUT OF THE KITCHEN WHEN AROUND THE OFFENDER!!! (it's an arsenal in there!) Know the exits around you Keep "supplies" handy if needed to grab and run (money, id, important papers) Keep porch lights on at night K

Introducing...................Kyle

The last couple of weeks have been stressful for all of us - Kyle most of all, since he has been the one being poked and prodded. I can proudly say....Like Mother, Like Son - Kyle is showing that he can handle it all, and still bounce back stronger. Yesterday was Valentine's Day, and my gift from Kyle was a dinner he prepared. He told me he wanted to give me the day off...that I deserved it. First, however, I had to take him to the grocery store and purchase the ingredients. He would go with and pick it all out .....needless to say my pocketbook was a little concerned about this dinner.....but off we went. He did as he told me he would...he picked everything out, and then he prepared it all. Like me, he kicked everyone out of the kitchen and then started creating. Dinner was excellent. I was pleasantly surprised on just how good it was.... That was about the time when Kyle then informed me that he would be writing a blog about recipes and cooking... The next thing I knew he was on

Whew...

Well - while we still don't have answers, at least one thing we know is Kyle does not have leukemia...and that's a huge WHEW! It's starting to lean towards whatever he has is the same thing I had/have... a screwed up immune system that make doctors scratch their heads. I had my little nervous breakdown earlier this week where I thought I wouldn't be able to handle any of this....but...I am back now. We'll get through it... Kyle has always been my little mini-me. He looks just like me, and has my temperament (plus some) - he is an out of the box thinker...and most importantly stubborn - that stubbornness is something I know well, and I am sure that no matter what is thrown in front of him he will tackle because NOTHING will take him down. The hardest thing for me this week was being alone at night with my thoughts. All those anxious feelings and only walls to vent them towards... I couldn't stand it, so I ended up doing much of my venting on my facebook accou

Please Lord, not this.........

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Worried Anxious Fearful Apprehensive Irritable Cranky Reflective That's me this week. It was just a few weeks ago where I wrote how I was taking charge this year, and making sure I was in the driver's seat, and right now I feel like I am driving a 1976 Mercury Comet that is spinning out of control. That was the year when I, as a child, became ill only to have the next decade spent in hospitals, and specialists' offices. Poked...tested....isolated...and in pain. I'm getting flashbacks even though I am trying to keep from seeing them. The trigger being my son, Kyle. Much like me back then, Kyle is now showing symptoms of something popping up, and has an appointment tomorrow with a pediatric hematologist. This appointment comes after many months being ill off and on, and after numerous visits with doctors here in town. And I am fearful. Anxious. Worried... It started the same way with me. Thriving otherwise, but always ill. Not the typical picture of a child with an illn

$1.97 for 1.25 - YIKES!

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"When in the Hell did THAT happen?" "Unfriggenbelievable!!!!" "I need glasses!" Those were pretty much my comments as I took that little self eye exam while recently at a Walmart. You know the one....over by those granny looking cheap reading glasses. Spawning me to that little self torture, was the fact that I have been noticing more and more that I am handing things to my 11 yr old and saying... Read that! Tell me what is says! That and those headaches that seem to be more and more often after a day in front of the computer is what led me to confirming the fact I am getting OLD!. (well at least parts of me are) YIKES! Now being the frugal person I am, I - (of course) did not purchase that 14.99 pair of reading spectacles - I knew I could find a better buy - plus I was unwilling to accept the fact that now I knew I had to make that eye appointment I have now put off having for at least a decade or so. So I spent the next week with all of that on my mind