Life is not an accident
My thoughts have been deep and troubled the past few days. I've learned that my youngest child, my baby, is ill - an enlarged spleen, enlarged nodes in his abdomen tumor like things in the lining of his stomach, and alarming blood test results...and my worries over the past few months confirmed; something is going on - both he and I already knew that. It's been a lot to take in - and there's a part of me that is super pissed off right now - I am not really sure at what, but I feel those Mama Bear Claws coming out because something....some unknown element is harming my baby. Three days now I have cried.. I have worried... I have dealt with my fears... I have researched the unknown... I haven't been able to focus on anything but what is now before us... My concentration floats back to the fears...the worries...and the anger in me... Tonight I reached out to a special person in my life.......... He is currently dealing with the other end of the spectrum...his father is dri