Posts

Showing posts from August, 2010

R-E-S-P-E-C-T!!!!!

Image
Where has it gone? Have you noticed the decline? How more and more people are acting like they are entitled to whatever they want? That they don't have to treat another human being with common respect? I guess I am losing patience with people. That attitude some have that they are entitled to demand upon others or treat others like crap, for whatever the reason- be it their title, their status, their religion, their political affiliation....the behavior is rampant. Politicians and candidates who have no problem demanding your financial support without saying what in the hell they are going to do to honor it. Or the ones that think just because they popped on the scene and declared themselves a members of the same party you need now to show your undying support?!?!?! I'm really getting to the point where I've just about had it with organized political parties - I can be a liberal even if I don't pay my dues. And the there are the some people of faith who believe

What was I thinking? Was I thinking? sTrEsS!

Image
Wow, it was one hell of a weekend. If you read my last post then you know that last Friday.....August 13th...was the three year anniversary of a brutal trauma I and my children suffered. And you also know that like in the previous years, no matter how hard I try to forget it, my body and mind still needs to remember it. I thought then it was ironic that it should fall on the superstitious day of Friday the 13th, but little did I know just how hard it would hit me. A series of events happened last Friday which would remind me of how much I have lost, how hard the struggle to survive has been, and how far I still have to go. Bam! Bam! Bam! It felt like I was being punched over and over and over. Needless to say my nerves were already raw and those punches served to remind me just how raw they were. The series of events that took place all in some way stem from the entire reason for the anniversary taking place. I live in Wisconsin, but my bank is in Illinois - the reason for this

Another year passes

Image
I was feeling on edge all week. Something I attributed to the oppressive heat and humidity we've been experiencing - However yesterday I started feeling a bit more shaky and I had an ache in my neck...a knot. I put it off on stress, and all the things I have on my mind lately - then tonight I was sitting here at the computer when all of a sudden some poetry started flowing out of me, flowing fast and furiously...for the second time today. I wondered to myself if I was losing my mind...was I going through some sort mid-life crisis...or was it this damn heat.... I decided to play some games on Facebook and that's when it hit me.... Just one hour ago...a half an hour before midnight....30 minutes before the date changes from August 12th to August 13th...it's been three years....three years ago the man I once loved had his hands wrapped around my throat while he sexually assaulted me and threatened my life. Images flashed before my eyes...like pictures in a photo album.

Simple......

Image
For years now I've longed for simple. A simple life - one where struggle was a thing of the past. This morning I ask myself if that is even possible. We struggle from the moment we are conceived...that fertilized egg struggles to find a safe place in the womb of our mothers, and then depending on what life has in store for us we either thrive and grow strong so that we can scream that cry of life's first breath or we don't survive the gestation for whatever reason, and never know what oxygen feels like in our lungs. Far from simple. The foundation we come into this world is filled with the beauty of struggle - surviving. I tell my sons that when a person has struggled and fought to survive, they can appreciate the awesome peace there is when in the quiet moments a  burning sunset can bring a tear to a heart. I guess it's one of those morning where as I sip my coffee my mind wanders off into these deep thoughts. Sometimes I wonder if I am the only one that does th

Sunday evening laughs with Bill Maher

Image
Yes, it appears that Bill Maher is staring at my friend's, Jennifer, chest....that picture taken yesterday evening will make me laugh for some time, that I am sure. Jennifer had gotten tickets to see Maher in Madison at  Overtrue Hall, so yesterday evening we made 70 plus mile jaunt to Madison....70 miles that took almost two hours to drive courtesy of all the tourists clogging up 90/94 as they headed back to Illinois. It was one of those days where I had spent all afternoon running around, and didn't seem to have quite enough time to accomplish all I wanted.... By the time Jennifer got here to pick me up, I was pretty damn frazzled....I had just hightailed it from a town 12 miles away where there was a fundraiser going on (well it was suppose to be happening) for Lend a Hand . We were sponsoring a free showing of the movie Two Mules for Sister Sara, and asking for donations to help the homeless....the population that seems to be ever growing, but also forgotten about