2017 was one of those years filled with lessons. Last year taught me that I am strong, perhaps stronger than I have ever realized. I can stand on my own, even if on some rather shaky ground.
*This year the goal is to not only live, but to take better care of myself while I do so. That includes not apologizing for needing rest when I am flaring from Sjogrens or RA. I am hyper-aware that others may not see the symptoms I experience and because of that, I tend not to do what I need to out of fear of what some may say or think. Enough of that! I want to one day spoil my future grandchildren (which there better be a girl!)
*To sell this house - another goal.
*To continue doing the work I know I am supposed to do - let others know they are not alone in surviving those experiences where they feel so isolated from others. Healing is a process, it takes time, it takes patience, more importantly, you cannot control it - you just need to believe you are worth the effort.
*Listen to that intuition of mine. If anything, this year has taught me, I am spot on when it comes to seeing through lies, intentions, and pain in others - despite their smiles. In all essence, this means to trust myself, every part of me.
*And the best for last, I need to see my boys more than I have this past year. It is not a want, it is a need. Those boys are the greatest investment in life I have made - not a day goes by that I am not filled with pride for all that they do and the humans they have grown to be. I have been middle class and I have lived in poverty, through it all my children have always been my riches.
Let this year be the year you all shine - enjoy your great adventure!
Take care and be well.