Disgruntled ramblings
It's been one of those exceedingly busy weeks, which is good for the most part because that means I am living...working..doing the things I enjoy...but it just so happens that this week has also been one that I witnessed people go through extreme pain...moment of crisis in their lives.
And the world keeps going on.........
Others that should care....don't.....
Blind eyes turned......
This post may not make sense to some people as I have to be watchful of the details I give out - but to others the message should be clear.
GROW UP!
Just because someone doesn't agree with you doesn't mean they're out to get you...
Just because you cannot stand the presence of another and their beliefs doesn't mean you should be able to twist things, lie...gang up...and attempt to ostracize while ruining their future hopes..
Voice your opinions...
Dislike them if you want...
Take action if you have a cause to speak up for...speak out ...but don't make it up as you go for the sole purpose of harming another because they don't fit into your circle of like minded friends or fools..whatever the case may be.
Be an adult - live by that Golden Rule so many claim to carry close to their hearts.
Mistakes happen.....
We're all human...but remember that when you make that choice to stand on your pedestal - because that pedestal is not on a firm foundation - it's your fears that hold it up - own those not the reactions your own pain causes you.
As I write this I myself must look deep within and question if the action I could take upon someone is because it will end a injustice and be preventative in nature- or is it because someone just pisses me off.....time will tell. What would be my motivation?
Yes....can you tell I am disgruntled right now..
But even more so I am disappointed in people I thought I once knew....
I guess that's what happens when you realize a once friend is now a distant acquaintance... a realization I had after coming to terms with the fact I never did know them well .....
I wish I could speak about the details that have created these thoughts in me..but I can't because writing them all out..disclosing them would just add more pain to the picture....
And then there was yesterday......
Yesterday I was present to watch an event that will forever stay with me...
I watched an older woman cling onto the one thing she had left in this world, her pride.
Alone - ill - no money - blind in one eye..sight failing in the other...she was being evicted from the one thing she thought she had left - her home.
It was one of the most saddest and tragic events I have ever witnessed.
Fighting tooth and nail .... lashing out at people there who were trying to help ...she actively and openly took a walk down memory lane and all the things and people she had lost in her accomplished life.
A woman whose intelligence was so strong that it worked against her as she went about debating swallowing that pride ...
A scientist and writer she once was....the caretaker for her family that throughout the years she forgot to care for herself and her own needs...never married...no children....and now that home was being forced out from under her.
My heart went out to her as she fought tooth and nail...
The world and life can at times seem so cruel...unbearable in fact.
Steps backward cannot be taken - she will never have those children....she will never get back that time spent caring for others but not herself and her own needs...and now...today...that memory of yesterday will be on her mind.
So sad....
So tragic...
And just one story...from one life's past.........her past impacts my future...
We are all connected....respect that even if you don't care for the connection.........
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