AI - My Experience

 

Over the last few years, I've relied on AI more and more, and doing so against a wave of naysayers who offer only opinions, no solutions.  (I just used Grammarly to fix typos, and it replaced alternative words for grammar.)

I know I shouldn't be fazed by their comments - I should stand tall in my space and be proud of finding ways to still create, but let's be real, everyone needs human connection and support. Unfortunately, we live in a dictatorial atmosphere where society feels it can decide your value, worth, and relevance.  (used Grammarly again)

As I navigate life, middle-aged, disabled, with chronic conditions,  I am finding there is nowhere I fit or can easily access. The walls can close in tight when that happens. Thankfully, I've always been drawn to computers - I've never been afraid to use them. It started in the 80s and has gone from there...

Except now I use them differently than I once did working jobs or even when I volunteered -now, it's a lifeline for me in keeping my mind active- creating, however I can. 

But -my path is looked down on. Not supported, not cheered - I am not crawling over glass shards of hurdle, bleeding to get out a paragraph, so the abled world can applaud as they pet my head. 

Yes, that is what it feels like, to me. 

Is there somewhere for someone like me? I am really starting to wonder. As someone under 60 in a rural area, I do not qualify for many local services. Being that I cannot drive because of my conditions and live in rural areas, I am isolated unless I take the community bus, which you have to schedule at least 24 hrs prior, or thumb a ride off my adult son and his wife or someone else. I moved into this area while being even more in pain than now, so I don't have the foundation of a community. I tried, but the few things I did try were active beehives of drama.  Could I go into disability housing in an urban center - probably. But have you been paying attention to the country? Does it sound stable to you? And then what? Scheduled visits from family that make an effort? 

"Oh no, it will be great! You can meet people like you!" society's response- Oh, you mean the forgotten and stored? 

Anyhow - I felt a need to put this out there as society openly debates the AI issue - No, AI is not my crutch, it's my cane for writing, for organizing thoughts, for finding words lost in my mind of pain and for finally getting out creative storylines in my head for 50 yrs. There's nothing I am doing that doesn't have ME at the center. 

Maybe this is a selfish post of me feeling sorry for myself - 

So what. 

It's me. 

Anyhow, the following will sum up my morning thoughts- and no - world, this is NOT a plea because of a desire to commit self-harm - it is a plea to YOU try to understand others in my situation. Below are three posts I posted this morning - all very real thoughts and questions in my mind. My own words-  And then I copied and pasted those posts into Grok - just to see what it would pop off as a response. That too is below. It is very much the process I use throughout the day when I create - 

As for AI's response to those 3 posts - well, I forgot I did it in a chat looking over my medical results so the answer continues on with that- A conversation I started this morning because I feel like my healthcare is severely lacking - 

You tell me Society - how you would respond because when I ask I tend to hear crickets or "get a hobby" - "join a group" 

(they- groups for people like me,  don't exist, btw, and I am too tired to start one)